Thursday, August 17, 2023

JttW/ The new guy is... interesting

 originally posted on tumblr, Aug 17th 2023  

Wukong is the last to be acquired by the pilgrimage group, and between Wujing and Wuneng’s glowing testimonials of his horrific deeds, everyone is rather on edge.

Wukong having 500 years worth of rusty social skills and pent-up energy certainly doesn’t help soothe the other’s concerns. It’s an uphill battle to get everyone used to their new younger brother, though the fillet helps a bit.

every time i remember the poor guy was been fed molten copper, all i can think is the aftermath of a forge’s project, and… yeah, that first bath is gonna be like those heavy duty carpet cleaning videos. hope their host has some steel wool on hand.

 

Monday, August 14, 2023

JttW/ “Let me make a wager with you.”


 originally posted on tumblr, Aug 14th 2023

“[…] He’d be an immortal, a Buddha, if he’s good;
Wickedness would cloak him with hair and horn.
Endlessly changing he runs amok in Heaven,
Not to be seized by fighting lords
or thunder gods.”

the mental image of Sun Wukong absolutely twisted into a horrifying demonic form by his rage and ambition, moments before that fateful bet, make me go batshit insane <3



Monday, August 7, 2023

JttW/ filial piety

 originally posted on tumblr, Aug 7th 2023

 

The stone child’s return was a blessing beyond counting. A-ma had missed him terribly though she never expected him to acquire so much power in such a short time. But she paid it no mind; her son was returned to her side and he had the strength to tame tigers and dragons and protect their land.
Every year their feasts and festivals grew larger and more opulent, guests from the mainland and beyond gracing their cave’s halls and filling it with laughter and song. Her kingly son brought riches that she never imagined, decorating her brow and shoulders with the brightest jewels, flowers and brocade. Demon kings all bowed low in respect as she walked, her word heeded far and wide.
Then Heaven called. Her son left to join the bureaucracy, much to An-Kong’s approval. Of course he would, and she couldn’t be more proud. But then he returned, with news of the indignity the celestials put her precious son through. Heaven was beaten and capitulated, but A-ma is slow to forgive.
But she knew her beloved child well, and he would always return to their mansion beneath the waterfall with the best for their kin and kindred. This was their way; those who could take, took, and those who couldn’t defend their boons, had to bow to the strong who could. One would think celestials would guard such treasures more carefully, she thought to herself as the jade wine graced her lips.
So much for the might of the Eastern Heavens…

fun fact! by sheer happy accident, the image size divided neatly into 3 parts! but not composition wise! so i had to edit everything to fit neatly in three images!!! man i gotta learn how to plan my comics better smh

yall thought i wasn’t going to get angsty? oh besties we haven’t even started!! ;3

also hope yall like Yuehua’s cameo, I have a comic in mind to explain how he gets Wukong’s favor but he ends up being titled Marshal Ma in my au.

 

Sunday, July 23, 2023

JttW/ monkey love language

originally posted on tumblr, 23th July 2023

i absolutely adore just how aggressively physical monkeys can be with affection. they just fully press their heads into each other, lots of tugging and pulling, almost throwing themselves at each other when they want attention.
i bet it takes Wukong some adjustment so he doesn’t use his full force when he gets grabbed by the need to just squeeze someone lmao, but just as much as the others need time to get used to a monkey perched on them every now and then. plus grooming is often a bargaining chip and a way to build relationships and a show of affection and trust.
so, a bit of monkey love for each of the group! :D

aaaand Zhu Bajie and Sha Wujing face reveal!! working on a fullbody lineup to show off their heights as well, so consider this a teaser ;3

Bajie is half wild boar, half babirusa. I love the four-tusk situation babirusa have going on, but his bristled mane is too iconic to handwave away. plus, pigs that go feral grow tusks and thicker fur, so i wanted to capture some of that with the half-and-half design.

as for Wujing, he’s a complicated one to explain, but for his face i really wanted his beard to stand out as well as the six skulls necklace. i’m going for a “intermittent waters” concept with him, since he’s originally connected to a desert before being made into a river demon, so i’m drawing on mudskippers for his ear fins and face spots.

 

Thursday, July 20, 2023

JttW/ The missing Bailongma incident

 originally posted on tumblr, Jul 20th 2023 

seems like someone forgot to warn their hosts that Tripitaka’s horse is also one of his disciples and can’t quite have classes in the stables (it was Wukong). luckily that’s a quick fix, unlike a kidnapping of some sort.

aaaand Tripitaka and Ao Lie reveal uwu

i like to picture dragons having just So Much Hair in human form because it’s their mane all condensed on the top of their head. it feels fitting that Lie would also wear some sort of curlicle headband himself, and the fancy topknot is still there since he IS a prince. the long nails/talons is also a nobility signifier, so it works out.

as for Tripitaka, he gets earrings to weigh down his earlobes and well, he’s the son of a nobleman. i gave him a different backstory (but only slightly) so instead of missing a pinkie toe, he has a scar on his head. I’ll go into deets later on when i have a proper ref for his outfits since he got a couple in this au uwu

 

JttW/ An-kong, Huaguoshan Tudi

 originally posted on tumblr, Jul 20th 2023

All land has its tutelary deity, and Huaguoshan is no different. Elusive and hard to reach, he's still called An-kong by all the creatures in the mountain. After centuries of being bullied and pushed around by local Yao, he's renounced dealing with other beings as much as possible.
However, A-ma Longan's arrival changed things. She established an altar for him deep in the mountain's forest, and made a habit of making offerings and prayers for the sake of the mountain and her troop. Over time, they grew close and though their exact relationship is murky at the best of times, quite a few local animals and demons address her as Tudipo when trying to gain her favor.
He's still rather prickly and standoffish, but Longan's Little Pebble and his unstoppable force of a cheerful and friendly disposition tend to slip under the cracks. He's prone to indulging in the little monkey's requests for cuddles and attention, but only when no one's looking. Can't let the animals of the forest start trying to get too chummy with him after all.

back at A-ma's post, I said that she was close to the mountain's Dijizhu, but that was incorrect. those are landlord deities, a type of tutelary god but not the same as a Tudi. that was my bad xvx

 

Tuesday, July 18, 2023

JttW/ Hide and Seek

 originally posted on tumblr, Jul 18th 2023 

well, one must give credit to the old man's stubbornness in his grouchiness. but hey, if there's one way to summarize the dynamics of these three, this is it!
also, the "old man" is strictly affectionate, like calling one's wife "the old missus" and such

 

Saturday, July 15, 2023

JttW/ Will Horse, Mind Monkey

 originally posted on tumblr, Jul 15th 2023

i thought i’d do a little something today since the reading club for JTTW over at @journeythroughjourneytothewest hosted by @/sketching-shark officially begins tomorrow!

to everyone embarking on this venture, i hope we all have a wonderful time, and wishing for us plenty of fun, learning, and inspiration!

also lowkey Bai Longma concept reveal!
i based him off Mongolian horses because i adore them, i find their resilience and endurance a good match for the Will Horse allegory, and also the mental image of a long noodle dragon turning into a stout horse incredibly comical

Friday, July 14, 2023

JttW/ Happy Nonbinary Day and Disability Pride Month!!

originally posted on tumblr, Jul 14th 2023

anyway welcome to my Wukong hcs, i’ll try and elaborate at some point but basically what is human gender norms to an immortal overpowered murder monkey?

 

Wednesday, July 12, 2023

Jttw/ The Prodigal King, comic

 originally posted on tumblr, July 12th 2023 

The Prodigal King

At Huaguoshan, the bachelor troop of the Water-Curtain Cave gathers for the night in idle chatter. Long comic below!
(cw blood, animal violence)

—–

Junji, or Golden-Orange: leader of the bachelor group, oldest of the bunch.
Yuehua, or Moonflower: a quiet but loyal Thomas’ Langur who just recently joined the band of youths.
Songzhen, or Pine-needles: second-oldest of the group, a laidback Ebony Javan Langur.
Suanguo, or Sour-fruit: the youngest and grumpiest of the bunch, a red-shanked douc.
Xiaoshi: “little stone”, affectionate nickname for Sun Wukong


Friday, July 7, 2023

JttW/ Sun Wukong, my design and notes

 originally posted on tumblr, July 7th 2023

Stone Monkey: himbs baby, that is all <3 he’s mostly based off the François Langur, but some of his anatomy and proportions lean more on the Gray Langur and Macaque side of things. His facial fur sort of forms a pentagon shape for the five elements, and I gave him ginger fur cus it’s a common depiction for him but also baby langurs are very bright orange, and him not growing dark feels like an apt display of his more childish side, both good and bad. His nails are golden for a bit of a “hidden gem” from a stone egg. Also keeping the tail either in a spiral of C-curve when “engaged”, and when droopy it has a feel of a heavy rope. Old World monkeys don’t have prehensile tails, he can use it for balance and basic mobility but it’s not a third hand for the sake of keeping his monkey-ness. 

Handsome Monkey King: in one of the poems the monkeys are said to weave grass for mattresses, so I can see them coming up with a crown of woven grass and never-fading leaves and flowers for their king at the very least. His face skin is darker as an adult, but not much else changes overall. The fuzzy upper lips and sideburns are a feature of the species I’m basing him on and it felt like a good fit to add. I also love the forest langurs are so long-furred, makes for a good way to give him dimension but also, the linework style reminds me of old woodcut shorthands for fur. Added a jade coin for the symbolism, and it feels fitting that the king of such a miraculous mountain would have a treasure like that on him. Placcid chill eyes are imperative, dude’s not had an existential crisis yet, he’s straight up vibing.

 

Sun Wukong: during his odd-ten years away from home, he learned human manners so he can stand but, I can see him still needing to lean on his tail to keep up his balance here and there. As he reaches the Western Continent (India) and learns the Way under Patriarch Subodhi, he adopts proper clothes for an apprentice and eventually becomes a Rishi. He dons his facial paint from then on, and after he masters the Way, there’s a brightness in his pupils to show his cultivated immortality. The beads are purple solely to stand out over the deluge of oranges that is his design. 

 

Great Sage Equal to Heaven: really went all out on this one orz this is Wukong at his most egotistical and ambitious, and I wanted his fit to truly embody that. Took bits from Peking Opera costumes and common depiction elements of him, with some bit of extra for appropriate levels of flair, like the phoenix feather design. I wanted to go for a mountain pattern mail but I couldn’t figure out how to draw it, so I winged a pattern. I,,, doubt I’ll ever draw this armor as detailed as here, but I wanted it to feel a bit overwhelming to look at, while also seeming like it doesn’t quite fit him perfectly like it’s swallowing him. Bit of a “baby wearing their parent’s shoes” kind of vibe; he’s stupidly powerful but he doesn’t have what it takes to sit on the throne of Heaven. Also I leaned his expression to how he might appear during the Havoc in Heaven and then his bet with the Buddha. Full unbrindled rage murder monkey <3

Ruyi Jingu Bang: can’t quite move on without my notes on the golden-hooped cudgel, now can I? The secondary hoops are there for further design appeal and for my own visualization of how the staff changes size (the hoops move over the staff’s length as if to push it outward or inward). The metal is dark damascus alloy, though the pattern can be omitted for ease of drawing. One hoop end depicts a dragon, the other a phoenix, and in the middle of the staff is the canon inscription as described in the books, in seal script. Glow is optional and mostly for aesthetics.

 

Sun Pilgrim: out of his stolen armor, Wukong seems to swim in his robes but in a less overwhelming way. Went for the simple fillet headband cus his face is busy enough as it is. I know he’s skilled enough to skin a tiger into pretty decent squares, but after one too many battles, anything would get tattered. He wears red, teal, black and yellow, four of the five cardinal colors, while white (the West) is still missing. His red and black half-robe doesn’t fully cover the yellow underneath, a call back to his golden armor; he tries to use his wisdom and teachings to fight back the impulses of his past, but they still shine through at times. I kept only the leg bangs for dynamic elements to better show movement, but also one could say he’s got…. golden hoops (haha get it, like his cudgel?? :oD)

 

Victorious Fighting Buddha: leaned hard on the actual portrayals of the Buddha. Seeing that he’s depicted with dark/blue skin, it felt appropriate to let the guy grow out of his baby ginger fur and into adult black, but a patch remains where the golden headband used to be. I didn’t want to give him long hair so no bun, but instead, his fur has a sorta lotus-petals shape now rather than his single point. His face paint changes into a more domino-mask style, and his brow white line resembles a teardrop urna. I made the mail piece he holds longer to keep the flowy bits of his previous outfits, and I turned Ruyi Jingu Bang into the sword he wields.  

Wednesday, July 5, 2023

JttW/ One Hundred (and One) Aspects of the Moon

 originally posted on tumblr, Jul 5th 2023 

inspired by the Yoshitoshi print, featuring my Wukong design.

i'm still working out his pilgrimage outfit tbh. going for a simple fillet headband, and i like the arm and leg bands but not sure if i wanna keep them. keeping the robes rather loose help sell the whole "skeletal" deal people often describe him as, i like my Wukong hella lanky.
oh, definitely going to keep the ruyi jingu bang letters though, they look great :>
my biggest issue is if his shoulder fuzz should show over his robe or nah. i don't want it to look like he has human hair, but it's such a dear part of his design.... i really played myself orz

 

Monday, July 3, 2023

JttW/ A-ma Longan, or Grandma Dragon-Eye

 originally posted on tumblr, Jul 3rd 2023

soooo i'm doing my own spin on giving Wukong a mama, so meet miss Dragon-Eye herself <3
Longan is a langur monkey who appeared in Huaguo one day centuries back, and found a spot for herself in one of the mountain's monkey troops. Given her considerable age and that she's been a mentor and a maternal figure to so many, she's earned a position of respect among the other langurs.
François langurs are matriarchal and rear their children communally among the females, and males leave the troop before they are mature, so I imagine that someone needs to kick ass when the troop is in danger, and given the amount of demons we have around, that's gonna be her.
Longan once attempted cultivation but ultimately gave up before reaching Huaguo, but what she's learned watching priests and monks doesn't go to waste. She's managed to keep peace among the monkeys as well as with most demons, and she does her best to keep all her loved ones healthy and safe. Sometimes that includes pacifying spirits and local gods, but that's just part of the job.
She has a sort of will-they-won't-they Situationship with the mountain's tutelary deity (dijizhu) who I'll get to eventually. They work well together, having grown their own kind of affectionate sniping and ribbing over the centuries, and he can't complain finally receiving offerings and not being trampled by this or that demon as was the case before Longan came.

i'm gonna come up with, way more ocs for this au of mine lmao including of course, giving Wukong a monkey big bro :3c

Saturday, July 1, 2023

JttW/ Sun Wukong

 originally posted on tumblr, Jul 1st 2023

i can't for the life of me remember or find it, but i once saw a concept study of Wukong as a gibbon if i remember right, and it's never left my mind! so i wanna pay homage to that and portray the good ol' monkey king as a langur monkey.

Monday, June 26, 2023

Unusual Muse Associations

originally posted on tumblr, Jun 26th 2023

taking out the trusty lads for this one, plus i should dust them off a bit. got tagged by my beloved @cerbin-aen-feainn so i suppose i'll tag mmmm @fledermavs @kaijufluffs and @bookcalanthedaily!!

Iridian Caedfel

SEASONING: toasted black pepper  

WEATHER: very clouded with mottled sunshine  

COLOUR: ashen black  

MAGICAL POWER: shadow manipulation  

PLANT: thistle  

WEAPON: daggers  

SUBJECT: eschatology 

SOCIAL MEDIA: mySpace  

MAKEUP PRODUCT: waterproof eyeliner 

CANDY: cinnamon hard candy  

FEAR: loss of individuality  

ICE CUBE SHAPE: skull  

METHOD OF LONG-DISTANCE TRAVEL: horseback riding 

ART STYLE: baroque  

MYTHOLOGICAL CREATURE: hellhound 

PIECE OF STATIONARY: blackout pens  

THREE EMOJIS:🖤😶🫀 

CELESTIAL BODY: starfield

Elryn of Rouhill

SEASONING: soy sauce  

WEATHER: warm and sunny with a pleasant breeze  

COLOUR: burnished gold  

MAGICAL POWER: ethereal weapons  

PLANT: dark marigold  

WEAPON: straight sword  

SUBJECT: public speaking and teaching theory  

SOCIAL MEDIA: mastodon  

MAKEUP PRODUCT: skincare routines  

CANDY: tictacs  

FEAR: failing as a role model  

ICE CUBE SHAPE: classic icecube tray shape 

METHOD OF LONG-DISTANCE TRAVEL: hitchhiking or carpooling  

ART STYLE: expressionism  

MYTHOLOGICAL CREATURE: gryffin  

PIECE OF STATIONARY: "good job" stamps and stickers 

THREE EMOJIS:🤣👍🧹  

CELESTIAL BODY: midday sun

Aodhán of Rouhill

SEASONING: ginger oil 

WEATHER: sunny but cold  

COLOUR: silver-blue  

MAGICAL POWER: immortality  

PLANT: jasmine  

WEAPON: spear  

SUBJECT: speculative anthropology  

SOCIAL MEDIA: twitter  

MAKEUP PRODUCT: lip stains 

CANDY: sour candy  

FEAR: being known  

ICE CUBE SHAPE: when you freeze a full water bottle and it slowly melts into a funky cylinder  

METHOD OF LONG-DISTANCE TRAVEL: brisk walking  

ART STYLE: neoclassicism  

MYTHOLOGICAL CREATURE: medieval unicorn  

PIECE OF STATIONARY: homemade wax seal  

THREE EMOJIS: 🙃🤷‍♂️🙊  

CELESTIAL BODY: new moon

 

 

 

Saturday, June 3, 2023

AC/ More Desmond headcanons

originally posted on tumblr, Jun 3rd 2023  

HCs dose of the week: stuff Desmond did for work during his runaway years

  • seasonal jobs depending on the city he was in before he made it to NYC, possibly cashier work in tourist attractions cus he was good with numbers and people;
  • street busking, he's handsome and i know he has a good singing voice;
  • your average customer service clerk on chain stores, like Virgin or Blockbuster;
  • a quick jaunt helping organize and carry inventory for a local store which led him to get recommended for,
  • working inventory on a logistics warehouse, meaning that Desmond Miles is in fact, forklift certified;
  • odd jobs as he was recommended to by friends and colleagues, anything from running mail to small fix-ups around the house;
  • outsourced custodian work for an apartment complex, which was the most chill work he ever had if you ask him;
  • stagehand for a local indie music scene, mingling with goths, metalheads and punks. he mostly did electricity and light directing, but on occasion, he did stage management;
  • a longer-than-expected period at a mechanic's workshop, got a taste for tuning up cars and bikes there;
  • food industry, maybe a prep cook or waiter on a smaller restaurant. not fast food though;
  • and of course, front bartender on high-end bars like Bad Weather.

Wednesday, May 31, 2023

Amanda The Adventurer and fairies

 originally posted on tumblr, May 31st 2023

 imo we're too focused on christian mythos with all the demons and sacrificial lambs, and forgetting the very pointed celtic mythology cues in this narrative and I'm here to be the change I wanna see in the world, so let's go!

game spoilers below, you know the deal uwu

I think the biggest hint that we should not get hung up on Christian mythology, is the fact that in the very introduction with the letter by Aunt Kate, she pointed says "by the gods." Not "by God", gods plurals. We're to take a polytheistic angle with this, but which exactly is nebulous at first.

Behind the Catching Up With Colton news clipping, there's news about a Celtic relic, the crown of the stag, being stolen, and suspicion of a gang called the Demons. This was pointed out as an easter egg from another game, but I feel there's more to it.

For the most obvious lead, there's the Pied Piper theory for Hameln entertainment, which is a fairytale. In the Coffee Break tape, we see how Sam wanted to "show the world is a magical place" which I do believe he meant as just that, being optimistic as he's characterized, but that's also a lot of settings in fairytales. There's the known world and the fantastical, magical world. And to expand on that, the setting of the story being limited to a single city and community instead of being something with a broader reach matches the usual setting of a fairytale being restricted to a single village or town. Not that unlike the Pied Piper story itself, set in the city of Hamelin.

If you really want to squint at it, things such as baking and sending cookies as a form of thanks, while pretty common daily life things are also linked to rituals to pacify the fey and offer thanks to magical beings. Cookies and pies are also incredibly common baked goods in fairytales, and for instance, the tale of Hansel and Gretel has a house of candies that lure them inside, to a witch who would fatten them up and eat them. While sweets are present in the tapes, they are often exchanged for pieces of meat and organs, almost as if they are interchangeable.

Bringing it back to the Celtic Relic clipping, there's a long explanation that the crown was given as a peace promise between the Fey and the human kings. As such, let's take a look at Celtic mythology.

Foxes in myth are messengers between worlds and are often connected to the afterlife. Also, foxes are often portrayed as fey-aligned creatures, due to their mischievous and cunning nature. Also to go broader than that, there are the myths of Reynard the Fox, a trickster spirit in folktales across Europe that often coexists with Isengrim the Wolf. It's also a common trope that foxes can shapeshift.

Picking a fox to die in a hidden bear trap is quite symbolic in itself. The fairytale character who outwits all and escapes the most difficult situations has been bested, not only defeated but killed. "Silly Mr. Fox" can not only be a display that there is no clever way out of this trap, but also that traveling between worlds is impossible or will kill you.

Now to the "Lonely Kitten", she's clearly representative of Rebecca, caught in a trap as well and without help in sight. When you try to help her, you end up as one more hanging piece of meat. Cats however are more deeply connected to fairies than foxes, with myths like the Cat-sìth which steal souls from the deceased and can curse folks who won't pacify them. One is even described as "the king of cats." While these cats are described as big as dogs, and black with a spot of white on their chests, choosing a cat is quite the artistic choice.

As for Wooly, sheep have in christian mythos the symbolism of the sacrificial lamb and so on, but let's take a look at Celtic tradition.

In Irish myth, the goddess Brigid (associated with wisdom, poetry, healing, protection, smithing and domesticated animals) was the owner of Cirb, a castrated ram who was king of all the rams and sheep of Ireland. Brigid was one of the Tuatha Dé Danann, a group of gods that became the Aen Seidhe. The fairies.

Furthermore, Cirb rules even over the seven sheep that belong to Manannán, a warrior god and ruler of the Otherworld, a realm of gods and the dead. He's responsible for keeping it hidden with a veil of invisibility, and it has been pointed out that at least two of the demons Rebecca is made to recite the names of are also granters of invisibility. Not only that, these sheep were fabled to produce enough wool to clothe every man, woman, and child the world over.

In a crossroads of christian and pagan, there's a myth that animals gain the power of speech after the stroke of midnight on Christmas Eve, including sheep. On most stories, it can only happen when they are observed and are unknowingly overheard by humans. There's also the common trope that children can hear the voice of animals while adults cannot, as a show of the magic of innocence.

I can't quite especulate much beyond this, but I think there's something to chew on here.

 

Saturday, May 27, 2023

AC/ Meta ideas

 originally posted on tumblr, May 27th 2023

idle meta ideas i wanna write eventually but i need way more foundations and actual sources and it's gonna take me A While:

  • Daniel's mentality is very informed by Nikolai's experience, which is informed by the ussr falling to Stalin's control and the disillusionment caused by that;
  • Shaun being a british catholic and how it informs his whole shtick;
  • Bill was meant to be british actually, or at least raised in the isles and I think that says a lot;
  • Desmond being SWANA immigrant-coded and living in NYC very post-9/11 and that somehow, never comes up??;
  • the brotherhood = cult point, because aesthetics a cult does not make, and if you're falling for this fallacy then you're likely missing the point;
  • no main game address to the whole "the conspiracies at the root of this game's lore are virulently racist and antisemitic" by so much as introducing jewish characters or, bringing them up at all? only on side games and content and that kinda really sucks


Tuesday, May 23, 2023

AC/ Lucy rant

 originally posted on tumblr, May 23rd 2023

okay so, I'm going to get to Lucy Stillman and the franchise's treatment of her, but i think I need to explain my own feelings about the portrayal of the modern brotherhood first. I do not buy the "brotherhood = conspiracy theory cult" angle. It's flawed and leads to terrible takes overall, by the lore and by the fandom.

It's a holdover from the fact that the game decides to run with conspiracy theories that we have in the real world, and assign them all to the Isu. they even poke fun of it in the earlier games with the whole lizard people and space wizards in tinfoil hats comments. now that's a whole can of worms in itself given how deeply racist and antisemitic the overwhelming majority of conspriacy theories are, but it's not a good way to portray the assassin brotherhood because that's not what they are. they are far leftists. they are anarchist cells, they are commune organizers, they are revolutionaries. that's not me saying it either, that's just canon, plain and simple.

but that would make the story too close to real-life politics and they can't do that cus it's not in their interests.

therefore, the brotherhood is coded as isolationist cultists, or at least as far as The Farm goes. in current year, i think we can all agree there's an inherent fallacy (if not outright disengenuous portrayal) of painting your leftist organization fighting against the capitalist neocolonial hegemony with the same strokes as the whacky people starting communes in the middle of nowhere to escape 5G towers, fluoride water and the [insert villanized minority group here].

i don't buy it, i don't appreciate it, and i think we could have had a stronger story without it, even regarding Desmond's backstory.

THAT SAID, let's take a look at Lucy. her's is the story of a girl who was forced into adulthood too early after being left to her own devices by a very sheltered and isolating community that failed her, and then inducted into a cult which ultimately killed her and then was promptly swept under the narrative. that cult is the templar order by the by.

Lucy was born and raised within the Brotherhood, and pretty much set lose on the world with no connectiosn to speak of. surely they must have given her a paper trail, fake parents and school enrollments, medical records, the works. she was told to infiltrate Abstergo and probably given a general path towards that, namely research that could be useful to them, but otherwise? she was on her own.

first thing that comes to mind is when Amish folks get their time away from their hometown to experience the world and choose to come back or not. i can't comment on their experience and general view on this so i won't attempt to draw a parallel here, but just that initial mental connection speaks for itself imo.

She speaks of having to wait tables to make ends meet, and while that's the socially expected experience of solo living for a young adult leaving home (work minimun wage jobs, go to college, climb the chain, start small, etc), she has no home to return to. In fact there's this looming tension that even opening up to missing her home or going into detail about it could blow her cover. Even in the privacy of being around friends and colleagues, there's this necessity of keeping up a front. She has to buy it so deeply it becomes her, inside and out, and doing that at such a formative age is bound to take it's toll.

You're removed from everything and everyone you've ever known. You don't know when or if you'll ever see them again. In fact they can die at any moment and you might never hear about it. Contact with them is a fraught and dangerous thing, and even the slightest slip could spell your doom and theirs. Connection is a constant swinging sword of Damocles over her, and who can take comfort and solace from community like that? No one, is who. So of course she'd seek that away from where she could endanger everyone.

So in comes Vidic. She knows he's a templar, of course she does, but he's kind and understanding, a bit frustrating and headstrong, but she can usually talk him into chilling out here and there. And of course, one can draw a parallel between him and Bill. Both are strict and charismatic (in their own way) father and mentor figures, but while Bill is cold and hard, Vidic feigns affection (as Haytham so eloquently put) and the worst part is, it works. Any affection and attention is good attention for the starved, and Lucy's been on the end of her ropes since she's been outside of the Brotherhood.

She knows and can see it's all manipulation, she's not that blind of course, but it chips away at her. That's what emotional manipulation does after all. And then, in come the agents to kill her, and Vidic stops them.

All her life she's heard how brutal and merciless the templars are, and surely she's seen it too while working under them, but right when her facade slips and she should be dead, she's not. Because Vidic spares her. Of course that leaves a deep impression on her, and further erodes her resolve. Slowly but surely, she opens up, and Vidic is an expert at what he does. She may hold quite a bit of guilt and shame at turning, but the templars were there when the brotherhood wasn't.

Bill says that of those they send to infiltrate the templars, they are either "too strong" and can't keep up the charade, or are "too weak" and turn. How is being a human being who needs connection and community "too weak"? How is being slowly lovebombed and manipulated into choosing the wire mother and then being foresaken the plush one when in need weakness?

Desmond says that she "seemed so sincere, like she really wanted to make a difference", and I truly believe she did. Her morals and belief were twisted through years of emotional torture and isolation, and she knew she couldn't return to the brotherhood after how far she caved under the pressure. There's no space for the nuances and endless gray areas of such an unbalanced war in the current brotherhood, and she knows it, so throwing in with the templars for her was the lesser evil. She's not fool enough to buy their propaganda wholesale, but it's a necessary concession in her mind so she can excuse her taking advantage of their attention and community. Again, as long as she's useful to them, she has a place among them.

However, the way she's treated by the narrative is... w o w. We never get the chance to hear it from her side, expect by a pathetically short email on the ACR dlc. While having the protagonists agonize over someone's beliefs after their passing and finding no solid answers, they really don't spend nearly enough time for that to carry much weight narratively. In fact, there's hardly much of a critique on the conditions that led her to that kind of fall from grace, and even less is done to fix it.

She, much like Clay, are the epitomes of how the brotherhood is mirroring too much the templar's and Juno's disregard for human life, and how that needs to change in order for them to turn the tides. But nothing comes of it, because our anchor to the modern timeline gets doomed by the narrative and now all those loose plot holes go nowhere. Her funeral, her burial, her memory, it all gets waved about like an annoying gnat on the dinner table, and nobody does anything but try their best to ignore it until it goes away. Her actress couldn't keep with their schedule, so they got rid of her in the most pathetic horrifyingly dismissive way possible.

Personally I'm not a fan of the templar turncoat plotline they gave her, but if that's what they wanted to go with, then it needed much MUCH more careful writing and it needed to fucking GO SOMEWHERE. But it doesn't. And it sucks.

 

Monday, May 22, 2023

AC/ Clay headcanons II

 originally posted on tumblr, May 22nd 2023

i'm inspired so as a cont to this post, Clay headcanons that only make sense to me part 2:

  • Clay had several instances of carpal tunnel syndrome and other hand tendon issues. Some of it was from biting more than he could chew when working for his father, others from simply overworking himself during college;
  • His mother had a penchant for outdoorsy activities, particularly hiking and nature preservation efforts, and they would often go on trips to camp out and just spend time together. His father would accompany them when he was younger but with time it became a son-and-mother activity even as things grew tenser at home;
  • As a child he struggled with retaining spoken requests which made helping his father a bit of a struggle since he needed to memorize measurements and the right tools to bring him, so he got the habit of writing things on his hands and arms which followed him to adulthood. He used to get bullied about the ink stains on his skin and his parents even got a bit of a chiding about it at a parent-teacher meeting once, because the ink might make him sick;
  • Before that he once went around naming each tool on his father's toolshed, even writing them down on the handles. To his credit, Harold did his best to recall the names and use them so Clay could find them more easily. Even as an adult, in his head certain pliers are Julie or Thomas, and each size of torques are a different B name like Bob, Billie, Bernard, Bart, etc;
  • He'd rather die than ever, ever admitting to that particular habit to another human being, though;
  • One of the things he truly misses from when he was a kid and things between his parents were still nice, was their movie nights on weekends. Without failure, his father would drive them all after breakfast to the nearest Blockbuster or cinema, and they'd pick out a movie to watch together. Even when things got hard financially and in his parent's marriage, that was the one thing they kept trying to keep alive, though it often ended up in arguments and tense awkward silent drives back home;
  • Once he began to explore his sexuality, he started to use a clip-on earring on his right ear but never around his family. HHe never got it pierced so he didn't have to raise questions with a hole in his ear but also because his phobia of being stung in general;
  • As anyone who works with machines of any kind, he developed his own rituals for his computer as well as for when he started to study the Animus software. One of those is tapping a camera lens before using it, or rubbing the logo of whatever computer he's using;
  • While he's not exactly a fan of tea himself, he really dislikes straight black coffee. It's either lattes or several spoons of sugar for him, and if he's drinking black coffee then you know it's a Bad Day;
  • He has opioid tolerance, which majorly sucked when he needed to have a corrective surgery for a hernia, and doubly sucked during his time at Abstergo since the Animus may require drugs to induce an altered level of consciousness;
  • He has a drawer containing all the extra bits and leftovers from projects. From extra screws and caps from furniture kits to chips and boards that aren't obsolte or broken to bits that he meant to put back eventually but always forget to. Over time the drawer evolved into a shelf and then to a considerable corner of his childhood room at his father's house. Both men refuse to do a cleanup of it just in case they need those at some point;
  • Speaking of, he had a small period of job hopping fresh out of college, mostly out of HR mismanagement and trying to juggle more than one job at once. Long story short, he ended up with three different work laptops that he never managed to return and are now way obsolete for much use. He keeps meaning to get rid of them but they always make him laugh, so he gives them a pass;
  • He's a tense and fussy sleeper, so he has a tendency to get tension migranes sometimes and they leave him with a very sour mood;
  • While he always nurtured an interest for space, he had a more complex curiosity for the sea and ocean life. He found it fascinating but it always left him feeling morose and ill at ease, while space always put an idealistic twinkle in his eyes. The ocean was just too close to be so full of mysteries and unknowns, while the final frontier seemed too far to give him any sense of foreboding;
  • Even so, he never met the sea. Only lakes and rivers, or seen it from above when he flew on planes, but he's never stood on an ocean beach proper.